TALES FROM THE BOBBI LAMA

My husband, Jack, passed away four years ago today, and, in order not to have a hard day of sadness, I said a prayer last night asking Jack to help me to have a happy day. I set my intention to try to focus, not on his death, but on our 54 years of loving each other here in the physical world. First thing this morning when I was turning off my alarm, I received a clear message that interrupted my thoughts. In my mind I heard, “I left just in time for both of us. It was only going to get much worse and be very hard.” It felt like Jack was giving me a very true message that actually helped me reframe my thoughts about his passing. And as I look back on that timing, he actually had reached a point where he couldn’t get out of bed anymore, was gradually going blind, couldn’t manage erratic blood pressures and arrhythmias, and so on, with no more remedies left. It definitiely put a positive spin on the timing of when he needed to pass and that it really did offer him such relief. It was such a half-full-glass thought that enabled me to start the day in a positive frame of mind.

Moving forward to brunch with a friend, who gave me an ornament with a red cardinal and the words, “I am always with you.” Her husband also sent well wishes and congratulated Jack on his “graduation.” How perfect of a gift on this day!

After brunch, I went into the hardware store to get a string of outdoor lights to replace a bad string at home. I found a box on a shelf marked $19.99 and took them to the register. The woman who rang me up said that will be 51 cents. I just looked at her with surprise and said, “Beg your pardon?” She repeated it, and we both laughed. How was that even possible?

Following those events, I went to a Hallmark store to get cards. I figured after that purchase, I’d have to continue to shop in the mall to try to find a present for a teenage girl. I don’t know the girl, but I did know she’d be joining my grandson at our family Christmas party, and I wanted her to get something, too. I had racked my brain for any idea for days already and couldn’t think of anything. Right as I walked past a display near the cards in the Hallmark store, I saw the perfect personalized bracelets, and, right in front of me, there was one with her name on it! Another blessing today.

I finally got home and had several calls and texts from my daughters and friends who wanted to wish me well on the anniversary of Jack’s crossing over. Each was kinder than the next. The last call made me so happy. My college roommate and her husband, our lifelong friends, had just bought plane tickets to come visit me in January. It’s been awhile since I’ve seen them, so it was the best news ever!

Looking back over the whole day, I feel so blessed. One little sign or miracle after another taught me that I don’t have to dread the anniversary of Jack’s crossing over. I can reframe the thoughts, draw the positive energy, and see him still with me as a guardian angel having an angelversary.