TALES FROM THE BOBBI LAMA

One very big flaw of mine is the amount of ruminating I do. I spend way too much time when decision making, trying to make sure I do whatever it is from my heart so as not to offend anyone or ends up being the wrong choice. And if I think I did offend or make a bad decision, the shoulda, coulda, wouldas start popping into my thoughts, and my peace is gone. I know this is my pattern, and have to remind myself to just do the best I can and then to let it go. I even bought a framed saying by Mother Teresa who said it’s all between me and God anyway, and it hangs on a wall to remind me. (See above.)

This morning, I needed that reminder as I debated who would receive my late husband’s professional technical library, going back and forth between an individual and a school. The neighbor who was just starting out in the business, has a family, and is struggling to make ends meet… or a vocational school that I had emailed recently but received no response. On the one hand, my husband’s resource library would only go to one person. On the other (maybe) it would be available on a shelf in an office somewhere. I really wanted his library to honor his 45-year career efforts to improve his industry and keep my husband’s legacy going.

I mentally asked my late husband, Jack, if he could give me a sign indicating which one he would have me choose. As I did, I happen to look up at a crooked picture hanging on the wall. There was no open window, no breeze, no one else home, and no explanation as to why it was so tilted. It has never been crooked and has been hanging there straight for over a decade. No surprise, it was Mother’s Teresa’s quote right when I needed it. I have no idea how it happened, but if it was a sign from my late husband’s energetic spirit, I got the message. Kindness always wins so I would go with my heart. The struggling young man deserved a break, and down the road, he could pass it forward from there.

(Thanks, Jack!)