TALES FROM THE BOBBI LAMA

What a delightful day yesterday, February 14th, turned out to be after all. I miss my late husband very much and usually fear the sadness that comes now with those happy holidays we used to share. I have to remind myself that he’s there with me in spirit which can only comfort me so much. I still miss him, his company, and his sense of humor. I deliberately have to work at making the holidays good days now. This Valentine’s Day, I reminded myself how important it is to have gratitude for all the love that I do receive from my family and friends. I chat with some of them during catch-up phone visits refilling my need to feel heart connections. I find time to walk outside and feel connected to nature, and I’ll read and meditate to feel connected to spirit. Of course a special chocolate truffle every so often doesn’t hurt and gives a boost to the dopamine, as well!

I also allow my intuitive sense of spiritual nudging to get my attention to do things that seem totally unrelated to my plan for the day. Somehow, they always pay off when I surrender. And yesterday was no exception. While I was out for my walk, I suddenly had an interruptive thought that I needed to start reducing some of the career clutter in my office file cabinet…and very particularly a folder having to do with schizophrenia. Why that folder, I wondered, but pulled out all of the contents to put into my recycling can. In the process of dumping the articles, a greeting card fell out onto the floor. And, what a wonderful surprise. It was a Valentine card from my late husband from many years ago. It was loving, and funny, and I laughed and cried simultaneously. I wondered who nudged me. God/Source? Jack? And how did it get in there? Why on earth in a folder on schizophrenia of all things? I know Jack was always a very funny guy, so it made sense he still is in Spirit. All I know is, I am always, always, always so grateful!